I'm so tired

Should i try more? But at the end what if it turns out to be bad? All i have done would have gone to waste, money, time, my feelings. I don't wanna make anyone disappointed of me, i don't wanna feel disappointed of myself, everything. I don't wanna live like this, i wanna go somewhere far away. I'm stuck at the middle weather i go on or runaway, I don't know. I don't wanna feel like this, why would i have such burden on my shoulder? Like a dilemma i wanna throw it away yet don't want to consider what i have done to have it.