I Am Disappointed In Myself

Last Friday, I had my drawing test & I screwed it up. I thought I had practiced enough but I was so wrong. I've never seen such a tough design & I kinda froze. My mind went completely blank I don't even know wtf I was doing. Most of my classmates finished it early so they left.

I just couldn't figure out the goddamn drawing...& when my professor said time was up... I felt like a total failure. For the past hour I couldn't even complete 50 percent of it. I was the last one to leave.

I had to submit my drawing online & once I did... I literally had a major breakdown. My professor saw me crying & he kept asking me what was going on...& I couldn't even respond because I was crying so hard I couldn't even speak.

He kept reassuring me that everything was going to be okay...but I just couldn't stop crying like the entire situation had just scarred me badly. My prof called my friend who was waiting outside to calm me down...

My eyes were swollen as fxxk. It's been such a rough week & I hope things would get better. Last Friday was a complete nightmare... I don't know what else to say. I kept wondering if I have made the right choice... I honestly feel so depressed.