I Cant Change the Past But I Can Change My Future

Relationships, life, careers are all governed by the choices we make. On balance, I think I've made more good than bad choices during my life. But, one bad choice can feel like it weighs down all those other good choices. You blame yourself for the outcome. Raking yourself over hot coals, reliving it over and over in your mind. Even when you know, intellectually, it was never just one choice that led to such a dismal outcome, there is that one choice that burns in your mind. Concentrating on that choice can warp your memory, can cause you to ignore all the other contributing factors. Can make you feel completely responsible, even though, maybe it wasn't just your choice. Maybe that choice was driven by someone else's choices, maybe it was driven by unforeseen events, maybe, maybe, maybe... You look at the choice and wonder what might have been, what if I had chosen something else, someone else, someplace else. You allow that choice and it's outcome to rule your mind, to influence other choices. You choose to give it a power it may never have had. You can lose yourself in your choices. I am choosing to move forward, resolving to choose what is best for me. Allowing myself to leave some choices in the past, accepting the consequences, learning from them, but not to let them unravel me.