how can you ' get over ' unjust & traumatic events from your past

i have had a very difficult past, much of what i went through i won't go into here....but i've struggled with a personality disorder all my adulthood and because at the time i wasn't getting any mental health support...i was having trouble controlling my conduct- anger & behaviour in public places....and there was many incidences in public places, in front of lots of people, i was physically attacked very badly by other lads or other men....i was overpowered, traumatized by it, and humiliated in front of a lot of people...i remember at the time there were women around who witnessed what happened to me.....and i can remember thinking they were 'getting off' by it, because i remember seeing erotic expressions and looks of excitement on their faces? i'm white and these were also all white women.

and i can remember feeling very hurt and upset by what happened to me and the reactions of people around me, deeply angry too, but a bit confused as well.

i've come a long long way since then, made a lot of progress all by myself, through being very mentally strong...and with the support of my wonderful mother, who's been with me through it all, all the time....i am doing better thse days and have better mental health support.....but when i think back and remember what happened to me, get painful memories i can't help but feel really angry still, at the unjust situations which happened to me many many many times.

does anyone have any thoughts on this?