I keep trying and fighting my way through the storms and the darkened jungles and wind and rain of life I find myself getting lost and unable get past

I will be clear and honest I have a big heart and care about others but in a modern world with so much going on I easily get confused and lost but I'm a different breed of person I keep trying to pull hard and keep finding ways to improve myself as the world is against people who are different and people who are rare but with the modern world today I easily get lost trying to build and prepare for my future my parents my life challenging by putting me in a group home but I am eager to build my own future and pave my own path to ensure that I can get to the finish line but it is a challenge I face everyday but even though I am trying to polarize my own life build clarity and in a world of people that have not been able to follow their dreams and get stuck in their own jobs that aren't improving on their dreams from early on but I think back to all the things I could have done or should have done differently because many of my decisions were fear based and many of the mistakes of my past I live with regret but I can't change that now it is too late to change the past but in the end I can only focus on the future but a saying I learned from my grandfather is you can't pave your way to the future if you don't respect the bones of the past and that saying means that you can't move on to the future if you hold on to your past and respect letting go of what has happened in the past but alot of my problems and mental health issues are from holding on to my mistakes and regretting them unable to move forward