I Cant Change the Past But I Can Change My Future

You have overcome a milestone if you hold that
We can't change one second of our past
we may not live to see tomorrow
so all we can control is right now

I spent way to many years looking back
wives hearing me cry about how bad my childhood sucked
get drunk and keep them up all night "You just don't know what it was like "
It was hell ,but I made it
and the things I was forced to do
only made me good at then for when I had to do for myself

I can say my childhood was robbed from me and I raised myself
but I also raised my brothers ,I taught them a lot
as my grandma taught me
They also make their women's lives hell doing the same thing
only I was beat by an adult ,they were made to mind by a kid
But now I am a killer Dad ,my kids have never been abused like that

I have been left by the women I loved
Shot and stabbed by so called friends
my face kicked off and part of my spine had to be removed on my 30th birthday
So I have been through a lot ,but crying about it won't change what has happened ..my pity parties cost me a lot

Take it day by day my friend ,and as you overcome things ,add that to you're faith ,I made it through that ,I can make it through anything
If you fail ,count the things that happened as a lesson ,learn from it
its only failure if it stops you there

Examine yourself ,not others
Though my parents were not role models ..I have made more then my share of mistakes too ,and my kids have suffered because of them
So be careful how you judge other ,you may end up doing something worse
and as we show mercy to others ,mercy is shown to us
Be a giver ,never allow anyone to harden you're heart
As we help others and give when others need help
It comes back to us ,,rarely from the people we helped ,but it comes back

Forgive ,never let someone hold you're mind and heart in bondage
hate and bitterness only hurts us ,the ones who hurt us ,rarely give us a second thought ,they only one still hurting is you

Hope some of this is helpful ,I know its a list of things I have had to handle
But "You don't know what I have been through " LOL
But I am still here to tell about it ,,I am now tougher then I look