I Cant Change the Past But I Can Change My Future

I have learned some of the hardest lessons from the past. My past was broken but my future is open. My future is anew and I am too.

I have carried all the burdens but I shouldn't have to carry it all.

I have, yes I have. But, it was the burdens I held onto that kept me from my future. Until I decided, No More!

I will not be used or abused any more! That was my life back then...abused, then I was used and I decided for myself No More!

My future is mine, not anyone else's, I've told myself I refuse to be a doormat to anyone. I have to start looking out for the myself and my children.

I used to be one of those moms who the neighborhood kids came too, then I became a thing of the past. I am a caretaker, because it was in my nature then I became a provider for all others aside from myself. Letting myself go and still in the end I was used by others.

Now I have to worry about me and nobody else because I still have a future ahead, for me.

I am 44 years old, I went through an abusive marriage for 14 years, raised 4 children. I took care of my ex mother in law even years after my divorce, I took care of someone else's child because her mother didn't want her, I struggled through debt taking care of other people besides myself only to be used by them.

I am starting a whole new future for myself because I am trying to find my calling.

And through it all, I was used by the very people who do not care.
I haven't given up on people, but I give up on giving my all to people who do not care.

Now I am embarking on a new journey with a whole new future that may be the very best thing for me.

That is my new future.