I Cant Change the Past But I Can Change My Future

I didn't have a great childhood and I suffered for it in some horrific ways, but I chose to not let it affect my future by not denying it happened or trying to forget it because you can't, you need to accept that it happened and decide how you can use those experiences, for me it was to help others understand and accept things so they could also go on to have a life untainted by their past..

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soulsugar

Parents in the sixties from my perspective didn't know HOW to parent properly. They only knew what they knew. They from Texas, where men are men is the attitude. I'm the only girl, the baby, and the one they had in the SF bay area, nothing in common with their own upbringing. They were hecka conservative, and I'm a free thinking hippie anarchist. lol
Anyway, I endured mental, verbal and emotional cruelty. Not many spankings. The scars inside last longer though. I could never please the parents, and my two brothers had each other like my parents did, so I was alone basically. Plus being the only girl, I wasn't allowed to bring friends over, go out and be back by dark was a thing I didn't really have.
Spoiling the kids was supposed to assume the role of compensation for parenting mistakes, if they admit to any. So my cousins thought I was living the good life. My dad was the only one in his family to NOT raise kids on welfare and he worked his ass off since he dropped out of school at around the age of 10. No dad meant he was responsible to help bring some income, so he worked his way into middle class living. The American dream. He gave that to us, but at a cost, ya know?