am i being too dramatic?

why cant my girl friends kiss me on the head instead of my male relatives. im ok with my male cousin, because we share the same interests and i feel like he is my brother. why does my dad need to put his hand on my shoulder and kiss my head? its not anything dirty. my brain is just making it dirty.
i wish i was looked at by the people i am interested in and not feel constantly sexualised. im scared to go out and wear crop tops and shorts.