I Am Always Improving Myself

I had a conversation with my friend and I still feel myself like if I received a slap. A slap that opened my eyes to reality.
The thing is that I'm...how to tell it...one of these people who are in her own world of fantasy and dreams. Very sensitive. All affects me as hell. I have an idea of the world...and when the reality is not so beautiful, I got disappointed.
I give thanks for having people around as this friend who from time to time, take me back to the Earth.

I was talking to him about my problems in school with my coworkers. It's not that I argued with anyone there but I was pretty disappointed bc noone wants to dirty his hands to arrange problems in the school. Only covering these problems to avoid a bad press.
He told me. People are like this. They try to do the less as possible and they don't like you to be outlined. If you are, they will go against you. Everyone has a strategy.

Everyone has a strategy, everyone has a strategy...this remark is on my mind all the time.

I thought. What the hell! It's a school. It's supposed we are there to work together and fight for the best for kids!

Don't believe nice words, he added, there are people who goes pretending being stupid because they don't want anyone to request anything. And then, there are people who put you a happy face and then, talk about you behind your back.

I must be stupid. Because I tend to believe what people tell me. I asked him: so, how I know if I can trust someone?. He said...you will only see with time. For their acts. Only smile. Don't ask for help. Do the things on your own and smile.

Now, that I'm more open to people...I don't know if it's my own fault ...but it's pretty disappointing bc if I found hard to be comfortable with someone in the past, now I see it even worse.

I'm very interested in knowing your thoughts and opinions.

novembermoon · 51-55

Dear twistermind, I see people for who they are and over time, I trust my intuition about them. I am a loner most of the time and I am very selective about the company I keep. At the workplace, I learn to be a team player and am pleasant enough to be around but I am averse to teambuilding activities that purport to strengthen bonds between people. To me, these are artificial and contrived. The real test of whether people are sincere is when they have to work together on real projects. And unfortunately, that is when they show their true colours. They may not be conniving or sly but generally, there is a lack of consideration for others when they do their work. The law of the jungle applies. It is every man for himself, guarding his own turf. Sad but true.