Insecurities

for me it's normal to be insecure w someone , like it was normal to be insecure because in my normal day after i compare my self i'm finally ok after. Not until i'm insecure because of my friend , she's pretty, smart, creative, wise, friendly, close to her parents, have a confident, very approachable, just she is really beautiful.. more like she is perfect to me , that's how i describe her to me. I knw nobody is perfect , i know her life will not be perfect as i imagine, i know i shouldn't be insecure because i have smthn that people don't have but i can't help it , i can't stop to overthink, i can't stop to compare my self to her or others.

i really get insecure when i do smth wrong , i feel a shamed for not being good , i always questioning my self, why i am not good? why i am dumb? why i'm not good at this??

Now i'm distracting my self and try to heal , try to solve my problem, i already told this to my few friends just trying to heal, trying to breath from the suffocation://