I failed! After four months of training I failed!!!

I am a incel. I have never had a girlfriend before or any woman that has ever loved me instead I have had prostitutes that have taken advantage of me to various degrees and one was really bad. She really shattered my world and I havent been the same since. So I have been trying to find myself again by doing the things that I used to before she entered my life.

I used to be a very physical person. I enjoyed martial arts and running and I have started running again I have done four runs in the last four months and they have all gone smoothly but I have suffered a failure on this day at my attempt at 27km. It was a tough course the weather was harsh but I tried that has to count for something but I am sad and disappointed I thought that I had what it takes but I failed I will take a one week break from running just to let my feet heal from this and then I will start running again the next week.

I will say that it failure hurts me but I am happy that I didn't let this break me and that I will continue.