update on my health - feeling better

just thought to give you a lil update since I came here and then said nothing.

I did a 3 days only water fast and I am now going out of it, eating fruits and slowly adding items.
I feel better.
I still need to be cautious but I am in a better place.

The people here helped me too by leaving me alone to recover as I needed, but also making it sure that I know they are here, if I needed anything.

It is raining right now in the Malaysian jungle, and the experience from the camping is so good...... it's a heavy rain.

I am the only one staying in the tent, the guy who owns the place and his volunteer are living in a house.
He told me I could stay there too but I chose the tent above the river, on the wooden platform.
I feel here my healing is better.

All is well.
In the morning they took me to the river, but since I am still cold I didn't swim, but I stayed under the sun and enjoyed the company of two other women, one Malay and one from Kyrgyzstan. We had nice time discussing the subjects of covering with hijab, swimming naked, and all sorts of wild stories :) I felt good.

The guy who owns the place is really nice. He has a very very kind heart and a difficult life. I relate to him and I admire his way of maintaining this place, building things around, keeping animals safe..

Truth is, we had a strong argument sometime ago, when I was here as his volunteer - now I came as a guest, to rest and recover - but he didn't treat me so nicely, he was pushing me a lot with the work, I was doing too much and he was never satisfied. One day he begun shouting at me in front of the other volunteers things like "I don't know which is your contribution here and what you are doing" and things like that. It was very intense actually, and I had to go and put myself under the shower and let it out for long. Of course I have answered him before I go eheh and I told him this is not a way to treat a volunteer who is actually doing so much.
He came to see me afterwards asking if I was Okay and I told him, no, I wasn't okay. He then begun to change. He apologized ever since few times, and has turned absolutely caring and appreciative towards me. It's been a wild ride though for sometime and I was considering to leave but -for reasons of material and mental shortage of perspective- I was out of options.

Now all is well and he is telling me how I can stay here for longer.

I really don't know as to how I will continue, but I love being on the journey.
I am actually on the Journey, even when I am not travelling. I have a suspicion that once you start with it, there's no way back.....