I Had An Affair
I was with him for 8 years. Was it right? Not at all. Do I have any regrets? Not one!
When I saw him there was an instant attraction. He was very handsome and charismatic. I knew I was gonna be with him. The day we met we ended up talking my whole lunch break. I had noticed the ring but it didn't stop me from enjoying such wonderful conversation. When it was time to leave he asked me did I come to the restaurant much I told him I just worked across the way. I knew he would come again. And he did multiple times.
When we finally became intimate it was as if I had found what I had been missing all of my life. He became my everything, my best friend, my lover, my confidant, yet he was married to a wife whom he adored. I respected his wife and he my kids. We had a certain place that we frequented but we made a point for us to be home nothing was ever out of the ordinary.
Over the years we grew to love each other and yes its possible to love two. Was everyday perfect? No we had arguments but we always worked through them. He often called me his "crutch" I was his stability in his crazy world. He would always tell me that he needed me. It felt good to be needed.
I met his wife one day we were in line at a store. She turned around and I noticed her immediately from all of the pictures I had seen. I wanted to not like her but she hadn't given me any reason not to. I looked her over everything about us was so different (except our boobs). She was tall and slender and I was short and curvy everything was totally opposite but we both were attractive women. Little did I know that would be a life changing moment for me.
It didn't happen overnight after many break ups and getting back together, him calling frequently and showing up at my job several times we finally walked away. It was the hardest thing I have EVER done.
I saw him recently with his new wife and little girl. (the reason I felt the need to write) He felt me staring and looked my way I gave him a quick smile and I saw hurt in his eyes. I wondered if mine reflected the same. I hurriedly walked away and made a point to get lost in the crowd and to never look back. It's been 5 years since we had any direct contact but sometimes it feels like 5 hrs.
I don't need any condemning to hell I lived that already and like I mentioned before there has been no regrets he was one of the best parts of my life.
When I saw him there was an instant attraction. He was very handsome and charismatic. I knew I was gonna be with him. The day we met we ended up talking my whole lunch break. I had noticed the ring but it didn't stop me from enjoying such wonderful conversation. When it was time to leave he asked me did I come to the restaurant much I told him I just worked across the way. I knew he would come again. And he did multiple times.
When we finally became intimate it was as if I had found what I had been missing all of my life. He became my everything, my best friend, my lover, my confidant, yet he was married to a wife whom he adored. I respected his wife and he my kids. We had a certain place that we frequented but we made a point for us to be home nothing was ever out of the ordinary.
Over the years we grew to love each other and yes its possible to love two. Was everyday perfect? No we had arguments but we always worked through them. He often called me his "crutch" I was his stability in his crazy world. He would always tell me that he needed me. It felt good to be needed.
I met his wife one day we were in line at a store. She turned around and I noticed her immediately from all of the pictures I had seen. I wanted to not like her but she hadn't given me any reason not to. I looked her over everything about us was so different (except our boobs). She was tall and slender and I was short and curvy everything was totally opposite but we both were attractive women. Little did I know that would be a life changing moment for me.
It didn't happen overnight after many break ups and getting back together, him calling frequently and showing up at my job several times we finally walked away. It was the hardest thing I have EVER done.
I saw him recently with his new wife and little girl. (the reason I felt the need to write) He felt me staring and looked my way I gave him a quick smile and I saw hurt in his eyes. I wondered if mine reflected the same. I hurriedly walked away and made a point to get lost in the crowd and to never look back. It's been 5 years since we had any direct contact but sometimes it feels like 5 hrs.
I don't need any condemning to hell I lived that already and like I mentioned before there has been no regrets he was one of the best parts of my life.
46-50, F
