I think I want my girlfriend from college back.

She was always cool on the side. She liked weed, but I never got to smoke with her, because I was also in the military at the time. She had long beautiful blonde hair that glowed gold in the sunlight and she always looked good in red. She had really pretty eyes and was a really chill person. I just wasn't there for her enough and some bad stuff happened to her. Then I got involved with the wrong crowd and pushed her away. Now she lives on the other side of the world from me, where she is probably a lot happier. I hope she is happy. I just wish she would have gotten to meet the real me. Who I am now. I was such a childish impulsive asshole back then. I didn't mean for anyone to get hurt. Anyway, I just want her to know that I'm sorry for all of it and that some part of me will always be in love with her. Seriously guys, don't take today for granted. You never know when all that you know will be gone and how bad you will miss these good times.