I Felt the Need to Reach Out
I doubt I'm the only one going through this pain so I want to share my struggle so that others who are burning as badly as I am can at least feel like they're not alone.
I've craved romantic companionship since I was 9 years old. I went and saw the animated movie Valiant when it came out in the cinema and that's where my desire for romance was born. I saw the dynamic between Valiant and his eventual interest, Victoria, blossom over the course of the film and a few of my principles were built off of interpretations from that film. Their dedication to each other is shown in particular moments and that touched my heart in such a way I'll never forget. I crave someone who's as dedicated to me as I would be to her. Their inherent value for each other is shown as Valiant ends up visiting her for affectionate reasons and Victoria reciprocates by saying that she just wants him to come back to her.
Ever since, my desire has grown but in all that time, I've never had any romantic experience. I imagine there's plenty of you out there in similar boats to mine if not the same boat. I imagine there's people out there who value romance, intimacy, affection and love above everything else in life and thus feel just how painful it is to be without it. To be starved for a long time of a desire so ingrained and so wholesome is the most painful thing one can ever feel. Not to mention the worst part of all. When you do inevitably find people you are interested in, you fall for them and decide to show your affections in some way, however the door is closed on you before you can even try. You feel so confused as to how people can shut the door on you before you've even displayed yourself in such a way that they would feel as loved as they are. That's the worst thing about it; not being able to love someone the way you want to because they lack the capacity to love you the way you love them.
For those of you burning in solitude, craving wholehearted, heartfelt, intimate, passionate, committed, adventurous and lasting romance, you are not alone in the fire. There's many of us out there yearning for this kind of connection and I don't want anyone feeling like they have to walk this painful road alone. Hold strong to the faith that heartfelt romance still exists and keep your eyes open for someone you might be able to sweep off their feet with your passion. Fundamentally, hold on to the hope with all the strength that's left in you and I pray that your faith will be rewarded. Stay strong.
I've craved romantic companionship since I was 9 years old. I went and saw the animated movie Valiant when it came out in the cinema and that's where my desire for romance was born. I saw the dynamic between Valiant and his eventual interest, Victoria, blossom over the course of the film and a few of my principles were built off of interpretations from that film. Their dedication to each other is shown in particular moments and that touched my heart in such a way I'll never forget. I crave someone who's as dedicated to me as I would be to her. Their inherent value for each other is shown as Valiant ends up visiting her for affectionate reasons and Victoria reciprocates by saying that she just wants him to come back to her.
Ever since, my desire has grown but in all that time, I've never had any romantic experience. I imagine there's plenty of you out there in similar boats to mine if not the same boat. I imagine there's people out there who value romance, intimacy, affection and love above everything else in life and thus feel just how painful it is to be without it. To be starved for a long time of a desire so ingrained and so wholesome is the most painful thing one can ever feel. Not to mention the worst part of all. When you do inevitably find people you are interested in, you fall for them and decide to show your affections in some way, however the door is closed on you before you can even try. You feel so confused as to how people can shut the door on you before you've even displayed yourself in such a way that they would feel as loved as they are. That's the worst thing about it; not being able to love someone the way you want to because they lack the capacity to love you the way you love them.
For those of you burning in solitude, craving wholehearted, heartfelt, intimate, passionate, committed, adventurous and lasting romance, you are not alone in the fire. There's many of us out there yearning for this kind of connection and I don't want anyone feeling like they have to walk this painful road alone. Hold strong to the faith that heartfelt romance still exists and keep your eyes open for someone you might be able to sweep off their feet with your passion. Fundamentally, hold on to the hope with all the strength that's left in you and I pray that your faith will be rewarded. Stay strong.
