I always wanted to have children of my own bur can't find a pontential mate? [I Question Religion]

I"m poor I'm onw welfare I just don't know I think I put to much trust in my family when it was me who wanted to change. My dad lost hope that I could maintain a job. I remember last summer I started working as a furniture mover and my body gave out on the second day I just coudldn't take it. I took this job out of desperation because I wanted to move out the house. I just I can't find a job that suits me. I endeding up ruining my job history because I will go to temp working agencies and I will say yes to what ever job because I thought that they would of seen me as lazy. My dad didn't allow me to fight doe 'Eros" I told my dad you were poor man you got something beautiful to eperience "Eros" I haven't and for that I'm willing to dive to the deepest onceans to find that pearl. I always saw my self as a fighter for love. ALways believe in love. Loving neighbor, Loving family, and "Eros"