Relatable?

I believe indifference is more a state of our minds than a direct opposite to those. A love breaking can make me feel numb first and later indifferent towards those who abandoned me, or abused my loyalty. Art in itself is dividing, what some find to be art will be seen as anything but art to others, and the beauty in [some] art isn't necessarily seen by everyone. Is that indifference or maybe more lack in education? Faith, I got such troubles with that concept. I don't believe in faith, I believe in random circumstances. Does this make me feel indifferent tho, I don't think so. Then there's death, it's so ultimate, the end of everything. When another of my loved ones dies, I am anything but indifferent, there'll follow several stages after the death has arrived, after grief comes a time to remember all the memories that was shared while life was there. This goes for loved ones, I'm not sure, but indifference might be how I feel if it was to be someone who treated me badly, but I'd still feel empathy with those left behind who might have had a different experience with this person. When I meet my own death I expect there to simply be no more feelings left in me, there's no more, and no other side in my universe, it's all now and here, on this cursed Earth. Just some morning reflections over my first cup of coffee. Woah, that had me wake up.