will that never happen for me
ideally i want a blonde busty girlfriend, pale too....or even a brunette of that description would do.....but my situation is i live alone on benefits, never been employed due to mental health issues...suffered bad experiences and bullying in my past from asian and african thugs when i lived in rough areas in apartments on my own..
now i feel isolated and alienated, i have very low self confidence, i have severe nervous problems.....i suffer paranoia too and often think people are against me and stopping me from having the things i want out of life, like relationships.
the only support i have now is my elderly mum and dad, they live far away....i'm now in my mid 40s and i just get very worried i'll never find a girl of my liking, that busty blonde or pale busty brunette...that; that will never happen? or that is being denied to me?
i get desperate sometimes for interactions, i phone helplines a lot now.....what do you think?
now i feel isolated and alienated, i have very low self confidence, i have severe nervous problems.....i suffer paranoia too and often think people are against me and stopping me from having the things i want out of life, like relationships.
the only support i have now is my elderly mum and dad, they live far away....i'm now in my mid 40s and i just get very worried i'll never find a girl of my liking, that busty blonde or pale busty brunette...that; that will never happen? or that is being denied to me?
i get desperate sometimes for interactions, i phone helplines a lot now.....what do you think?
