I have never had a girlfriend, either. And I was not physically disabled at all for most of my life. Yet I was overweight. And I lost my hair up top earlier than usual in my adult life. But my nerdy personality and clinginess kept people away, too. But it is not just women. I have no male friends, either.
As I aged, my toes started feeling cold more often. Then my feet. It was probably due to diabetes, which I did not know about until a few years later, since I had not seen a doctor in decades for anything. I just bought thermal socks to cope.
Then in 2023 I had strange boils on the back of my neck. I picked at them and they got infected and it spread. I left it alone hoping it would heal on its own but it got worse. Then it started affecting my legs for some reason. I later learned the infection had spread to my vertebrae, so maybe that was it. My legs started collapsing uncontrollably. So I called for an ambulance.
They immediately went to work on my infected neck, cutting away infected skin. They ran tests and said I had flesh eating bacteria. I had more cleaning surgeries and then they cut skin from my leg and grafted it on my neck. They said the infection had spread to my vertebrae yet not yet my spine. But I knew something felt wrong with my nerves. Tingling, loss of function, spasms. Etc.
While in the hospital I also learned I had diabetes, which explained my numb feet.
I was bedridden for weeks, and after all that, I had to use a walker for two months. I have not used it for two years, but still sometimes a leg just gives away on me. My feet are still numb although I have gotten my sugars down with diet and drugs.
I still feel weak and cannot walk far or fast but as long as I can drive and sit I can earn a living and live a somewhat normal life again. I should exercise my legs more, though. I feel tired after waking but then stronger the next day.
Right now I have a recurring pinch of pain near my left big toe. It kept me up last night until I lost consciousness. I hope it goes away. I should walk more.
Good luck!
As for me, I gave up on friendships. I can get by. But it has always been like this so I am used to it. They are now a bonus to me, not a necessity.
