I decided to wait until marriage

I decided to wait until I am married before engaging in any more sexual activity. I’m still a virgin and I had two boyfriends in the past that I have been sexually intimate ( outercourse with one)that I fell in love with and an online boyfriend that I fell in love with and sexted and had cybersex with. I just find the idea of waiting until I’m married to be very sweet and romantic. Also I’m find myself gravitating more towards men as time goes by instead of women in a romantic sense. I have had crushes and kissed a woman but never been physically intimate with a woman. I think I’m just trying to be more proper as I age. I think some traditional values regarding sexuality will be good for me. I think moderate religiosity would suit me just fine. Spirituality maybe rather than religiosity. I am an intersex woman who is gravitating towards men mostly. Although I can fall in love with males females other intersex people , transgender, non binary as my pansexuality allows. But for some reason I would just rather be in the role of a woman to a man. I don’t know what has changed within me. All I know is I’m following the path of abstinence and celibacy. And even after marriage, I don’t want penetrative sex. Anal oral or vaginal sex intercourse. Looks like my husband will just have to settle for outercourse and foreplay if I ever get well enough from my mental illness to find a husband.