I Am Unhappily Married

I thought being married for me would be different, silly notion I know but still who doesn't. but I don't know if me being depressed and being alone stems from the past abuse he use to do or is it something more. this weekend he was so loving and gentle but last night kinda hit me. .....when intimate. ...it's more just an act. he knows what turns me on or what I like but doesn't do it. even when presented with the opportunity he doesn't seemingly on purpose. but when he is in the mood is a cold stupid physical action and it's off you go. ....I can't talk to him about it bc then he gets offended in turn which brings out his anger and yeah. ..just not something I want to deal with. I don't know what to do. I wish he was so many things but most of all I wish I could talk to him. ...