I Am In A Sexless Marraige

So let me start out by saying I love sex, and I love sex with my husband, and OMG I love to have an orgasm. For someone who has addiction its a huge release. What I hate is how much I haven't had a sex drive, and how much I want to want to have sex, but I don't. I fucking hate it so much. I want to please my husband, I hate that I have no sex drive. I am not sure what it is that has causing my sex drive to become less and less lately. I have to force myself to have sex, and when we do have sex its something that I don't enjoy. I struggle from BPD, and I am medicated, and I am just not sure what is killing it. I hate it. I don't know what to do to change it. -_- I just feel like my marriage is suffering. Granted my husband is extremely understanding and our relationship is not based on sex by any means what so ever, however I want to do more for him. I want to please him. I want to make him happy. I feel useless lately. -_- any advise is greatly appreciated.