I Remember My First Painful Breakup [Painful Breakups]
Although I was the person who initiated the breakup it still saddened me more than I thought it would have. The person I was with was very uncaring about my problems when I was with them.
I was very depressed and having lots of serious problems such as issues with eating--I've always been very skinny and I have fast metabolism so I can never get any bigger than like 102lbs, but back then I was at least 93. I was extremely unhealthy. I had been hospitalized before for suicide attempts and my mother was considering putting me back because of the things I was saying/doing and the things my friends were telling her. I developed psychotic depression later and it was very hard for me to deal with feeling crazy because I saw things that weren't there. Things were hard.
So when I asked for support and confided in this person, they gave me so much compassion and care. Then after about a [i]week [/i]they started getting annoyed with me, and it wasn't even like I talked about my life all of the time or expected them to always have time for me. They would tell me things like "I don't want to hear you talk about how you're going to be hospitalized", "Just eat something it's not that big of a deal"(to someone with an eating disorder, yes, it is a big deal), or "I just want to have a normal conversation and not listen to you drone about you killing yourself". Besides that, they would just ignore me. They were very dismissive, inconsiderate, and hurtful.
I tried to confront them a few times nicely about ignoring me in general and they would make up excuses like "I don't have time" or "I'm busy", but I would see them on social media posting about being with their other friends, which also hurt. Because if you have time to spend a whole weekend with your friend, why is it hard to respond to me asking how your day was?
Eventually, I dumped them and told them how mean they were and how I wasn't being tolerant of it anymore. They tried to say sorry and make me stick around, but I cut them loose. Since then I've found somebody else who does really care about me and loves me and I've been with them for four months now but, the person I dumped constantly talks about me behind my back and tells people that I'm fake for finding someone else 3 months after I dumped them. They make me out to be an emotionally abusive control freak when really, I never did anything to hurt their feelings. It really makes me wonder if I actually went wrong somewhere sometimes.
I was very depressed and having lots of serious problems such as issues with eating--I've always been very skinny and I have fast metabolism so I can never get any bigger than like 102lbs, but back then I was at least 93. I was extremely unhealthy. I had been hospitalized before for suicide attempts and my mother was considering putting me back because of the things I was saying/doing and the things my friends were telling her. I developed psychotic depression later and it was very hard for me to deal with feeling crazy because I saw things that weren't there. Things were hard.
So when I asked for support and confided in this person, they gave me so much compassion and care. Then after about a [i]week [/i]they started getting annoyed with me, and it wasn't even like I talked about my life all of the time or expected them to always have time for me. They would tell me things like "I don't want to hear you talk about how you're going to be hospitalized", "Just eat something it's not that big of a deal"(to someone with an eating disorder, yes, it is a big deal), or "I just want to have a normal conversation and not listen to you drone about you killing yourself". Besides that, they would just ignore me. They were very dismissive, inconsiderate, and hurtful.
I tried to confront them a few times nicely about ignoring me in general and they would make up excuses like "I don't have time" or "I'm busy", but I would see them on social media posting about being with their other friends, which also hurt. Because if you have time to spend a whole weekend with your friend, why is it hard to respond to me asking how your day was?
Eventually, I dumped them and told them how mean they were and how I wasn't being tolerant of it anymore. They tried to say sorry and make me stick around, but I cut them loose. Since then I've found somebody else who does really care about me and loves me and I've been with them for four months now but, the person I dumped constantly talks about me behind my back and tells people that I'm fake for finding someone else 3 months after I dumped them. They make me out to be an emotionally abusive control freak when really, I never did anything to hurt their feelings. It really makes me wonder if I actually went wrong somewhere sometimes.
22-25, F
