I Went Through A Break Up That Changed My Life [Painful Breakups]

I pretend am okay. That am happy without her. its been 6 months now and i have not moved on, she has. its my fault we broke up and i tried to say am sorry but i realized sometimes sorry isn't enough. Sometimes there are no second chances. One mistake and your OUT!. I pretended it didn't hurt me, i even acted as if the break up had improved me but i was lying. thats what i wanted people to think so i wouldn't look like i was torn apart. i was. I lost motivation to do anything. she was my motivation. we worked in the same department and i just couldn't work with her being there no more. it just kept bringing back memories so i quit that job for another. my workmates kept asking why i left suddenly but i just had to. i had to find a proper place to heal if i was to move on, i thought to myself, "i said am sorry,maybe she will come back, it just takes time sometimes" I waited, and waited, and waited then i decided to quit waiting and just go talk to her maybe shes waiting for me to make the come-back move but guess what? She had already found someone else. She wasn't waiting for me. It appears i had only imagined what i wanted to be true. I thought we would go through anything but i was so wrong. I have to accept the truth that its over and that its never coming back.