When my marriage changed
I'm spending time looking back over my life. Those in recovery will know where I am.
I've been looking at my marriage.
I married at 20. By 24 we started trying for a family. But I'd always had terrible periods, still do. Only thing that helps is the pill.
I came off we tried, periods were a problem even getting a warning about sick leave. So back to pill then off again. Try again, nothing.
Through all of that I think our marriage was OK.
Then he decided to go to a clinic - to see what was wrong with me. I remember him saying that and feeling awful as though it was all my fault.
Doctor listened to his theory it was due to my periods being so heavy and painful. But said "We'll do tests on both of you".
Back we go. I'm fine his sperm count is very low.
That was the point. That's when if I'd have been more tuned in I should have realised. He was now the embarrassed one. The one with the problem and he grew a resentment against me there.
He changed diet and somethings but after another year nothing so ivf started being talked about. I remember then he started having problems in thar he couldn't maintain an erection at times. But suddenly just before ivf was going to start I fell pregnant. Then I was just so happy and two years later another pregnancy and my two lovable kids.
I should have seen then that the pills were needed all the time and the trips and nights away etc became more.
I should have seen then not 10 years later that our marriage ended really with that test result.
I've been looking at my marriage.
I married at 20. By 24 we started trying for a family. But I'd always had terrible periods, still do. Only thing that helps is the pill.
I came off we tried, periods were a problem even getting a warning about sick leave. So back to pill then off again. Try again, nothing.
Through all of that I think our marriage was OK.
Then he decided to go to a clinic - to see what was wrong with me. I remember him saying that and feeling awful as though it was all my fault.
Doctor listened to his theory it was due to my periods being so heavy and painful. But said "We'll do tests on both of you".
Back we go. I'm fine his sperm count is very low.
That was the point. That's when if I'd have been more tuned in I should have realised. He was now the embarrassed one. The one with the problem and he grew a resentment against me there.
He changed diet and somethings but after another year nothing so ivf started being talked about. I remember then he started having problems in thar he couldn't maintain an erection at times. But suddenly just before ivf was going to start I fell pregnant. Then I was just so happy and two years later another pregnancy and my two lovable kids.
I should have seen then that the pills were needed all the time and the trips and nights away etc became more.
I should have seen then not 10 years later that our marriage ended really with that test result.
