I Live In a Sexless Marriage
I guess I'm reaching the "anger" stage of the healing process. I'm angry with myself for wasting 25-years of my life to such a miserable existence.
It has gone. I can't get it back. My youth, my time, my potential. I accept this...have accepted it...but now the self anger is hitting me. "Look what you have done to yourself...you chose this."
Intellectually, I know being angry at myself is futile, but emotionally it's how it is. I accept this too, knowing it's another stage I have to go through. In a strange way, anger gives me strength and lessens the depression. It motivates me to move and do things.
It is what it is.
It has gone. I can't get it back. My youth, my time, my potential. I accept this...have accepted it...but now the self anger is hitting me. "Look what you have done to yourself...you chose this."
Intellectually, I know being angry at myself is futile, but emotionally it's how it is. I accept this too, knowing it's another stage I have to go through. In a strange way, anger gives me strength and lessens the depression. It motivates me to move and do things.
It is what it is.
