@Hakphin: she doesn't even care to read the messsge she block me whenever I try to contact , what awefull is I was saving money to meet her and she knew and I got my passport just to meet her , and she said 2 month ago before we broke that she would never cheat on me and as soon as she found a guy she blocked me everywhere

That's ridiculous. Dude, I know exactly what you're going through. I'd say that it's pretty safe to assume that she wanted the easier route and took the cowards way of dealing with it. She blocked you because she can't face you and wants to move on. Try to be thankful that you dodged a bullet, focus on rebuilding yourself, and plan to use that passport in another way. It's a good thing to have.

@Hakphin: hoping so , I am the first guy in my family to have a passport haha , it is just hurtfull we put so much effort in relationship , and she found a guy and abandoned me and she casually said I never wanted to try , so why would she put a effort if we don't have future , you don't even eat pig meat or beef (o eat chicken and said I would try beef for her ( Hindu don't eat beef )she said no he eat meat I love Mexican guy you are Indian which she noticed after 3 years

I'm going to steer clear of guys for a while

@Florence: Yeah! Work on you for awhile. It never hurt.