@MujiMuji I want to just gently say that I think you should respect her decision. I know that's hard, but don't forget, and I don't mean to minimize what you're going through, but I've gone through that myself. You may think that you might not find anyone again, but you will. There's someone that is out there that is just perfect for you and is waiting for you, as well. So please don't cut yourself off from finding your lady. She may be going through what you're going through, as well, and it would be great to find each other. To pursue this other lady will only keep you miserable.

@LadyGrace thank you, yes i am trying ,,,but I think it will take time. I am just trying to post what i feel through this. The feeling is also of loosing a good friend and i have no other, it’s difficult for me to make friends, i dont open up. But i need to try. Thank you.

@MujiMuji I'm glad you're opening up. I think that's important for healing. You don't have to rush through this. Take your time. There's no right or wrong way.