i wish i was in my brother's arms

im going through something extremely stressful, and i wish i could just jump in my brother's arms and stay there until i fall asleep. it would relieve a lot of the stress im feeling

but i cant do that, it will never happen, because he finds incest disgusting

i havent dated since 2018, i havent fallen in love with anyone since 2018, and when i finally do fall in love again, it's my brother and i cant be with him because he'd be appalled if he knew how i truly felt? life is so unfair. why is it so unfair? why is it this way?

i want nothing more than for the both of us to run away together and get away from this shit forever