(rant) the crush i have on my brother is ruining my life
im not going to go into too much detail because i dont want him/anyone else in my life finding this post and knowing it's about him due to the amount of detail i gave away
previously, ive written about the fact ive developed romantic feelings for my brother. this crush is starting to ruin my life because i know i cant have him, one of the reasons being is he finds incest disgusting. he'd be scarred if i were to tell him my true feelings
due to the fact i know i cant have him, it's taking a toll on my mental health. ive been in bed more. ive been listening to the songs ''wrong side of heaven'' and ''judgement day'' by five finger death punch and ''teardrops on my guitar'' by taylor swift in a loop just to cling onto what ounce of insanity i have left and to keep going
i seriously need to cut him off. if i were to, my body wouldnt be going through trauma right now, which it is. this whole entire thing has been traumatic for me, because i desperately love someone i cant have, but i have no choice but to be around him for a few more days because he has to send something important in the mail. i cant wait until i can finally cut him off/have peace
ive also been feeling ill and weak. im feeling ill and weak because im going through trauma. ive also been crying a lot. he's my everything and cutting him out of my life will make my life empty, but i must go. i want nothing more than to jump in his arms and bawl my eyes out until im OK again, but ive realized that wont happen. im so done, i cant take this anymore. i have to get away from him soon, because if i dont, something bad is going to happen to me
previously, ive written about the fact ive developed romantic feelings for my brother. this crush is starting to ruin my life because i know i cant have him, one of the reasons being is he finds incest disgusting. he'd be scarred if i were to tell him my true feelings
due to the fact i know i cant have him, it's taking a toll on my mental health. ive been in bed more. ive been listening to the songs ''wrong side of heaven'' and ''judgement day'' by five finger death punch and ''teardrops on my guitar'' by taylor swift in a loop just to cling onto what ounce of insanity i have left and to keep going
i seriously need to cut him off. if i were to, my body wouldnt be going through trauma right now, which it is. this whole entire thing has been traumatic for me, because i desperately love someone i cant have, but i have no choice but to be around him for a few more days because he has to send something important in the mail. i cant wait until i can finally cut him off/have peace
ive also been feeling ill and weak. im feeling ill and weak because im going through trauma. ive also been crying a lot. he's my everything and cutting him out of my life will make my life empty, but i must go. i want nothing more than to jump in his arms and bawl my eyes out until im OK again, but ive realized that wont happen. im so done, i cant take this anymore. i have to get away from him soon, because if i dont, something bad is going to happen to me
