I thought I was only in love with my son, but I had to find out

I am a 45 year old single mother. My son was 2 years old when his father left us. Since then I have been raising him alone because we have no other relatives. My son is now 25 years old and we live together. As far as I know, he has no one now and he is not planning on a relationship at the moment, which is strange to me because he has been obsessed with girls since he was a teenager and I can understand why girls are so into him because I am obsessed with him too. For a long time I thought I just felt a simple motherly love for him, but recently I have realized that it is much more than that. This may be partly why I have not sought a relationship until now. My sex life has been exhausted by masturbating for a good 10 years. I feel more and more perverted because lately all I can think about while masturbating is my son and I have orgasms like never before. This forbidden fruit is driving me crazy. I'm starting to think lately that I should try to open up to my son, to see if the attraction is mutual, although I know that I'm no longer a sexy, curvy 20-year-old girl, but I'm doing the best I can. I started working out at home and dieting to lose some of my excess weight. My wardrobe is that of a boring, everyday mom in her 40s, but I wanted to rejuvenate it a bit and bought some bolder pieces, and I also replaced my granny underwear set with all sorts of sexy pieces. I haven't worn too much makeup in a long time, but I was of the opinion that it was all or nothing and with very strong makeup in one of the very sexy lacy underwear sets, a transparent nightgown, one night I decided to give it a try and go to my son's. At the last minute, however, I got really nervous and quickly grabbed a duster, thinking it would be a good idea to go in and "clean" it. When I entered, he was lying in bed with his phone in his hand. At first, I just told him I was going to clean up a bit, and he was surprised and asked, "So late?" Then, in my nervousness, I don't even know what I said to him, I just started wiping down the cabinets, then I tried to lean in front of him so he could see better, and after a few minutes I saw a flash from his phone, which suggests that he had taken a picture. Something brutally started inside me then, but I didn't dare go any further and I quickly went to my room and masturbated all night. I had read on many forums that boys like to smell their mother's panties and I thought I would give it a try. After I got up in the morning, I took my panties from yesterday and when she was in the bathroom, I took them to her bed, but first I wiped them on her wet pussy. Then I waited and watched her reaction, but nothing, or not completely because it was 2 days ago and she's had my panties with her since then. So I think she likes it. That's why I'm making her another delicious juicy dose. I put another screw in her and left the door open, which is almost opposite her room a few meters away and almost overlooks my bed. I put on one of my favorite mother-son videos and started masturbating, I got so excited that I almost didn't notice, but I moaned louder and louder, so much so that she had to hear it, and it only made me wetter. Then when I was done, I went out to the kitchen and made her dinner. I put on a shorter t-shirt, cut off the bottom part of it so that my breasts were visible and left my panties on so that he could see what he was going to get before I gave it to him and I even put on some stockings and high heels. When he came out, he suddenly couldn't even say a word, it was obvious that he was embarrassed. He quickly grabbed his dinner and took it to his room. I took off my panties and put them in front of his room, then watched how he reacted to it. Of course he took it with him, and not long after when he went to take a shower, I went into his room and there were both of my panties on his bed, full of cum. As a good mother, I couldn't let my son play with such dirty panties, so I started licking the cum off him and in the meantime I reached for myself and started masturbating on my son's bed. But when I heard that she had finished in the bath, I got scared and quickly went out, taking the panties with me. The next day was Saturday and I thought we could go shopping together, since I don't have a driver's license, so I asked her to take me to one of the larger shopping centers, when we got there, I told her that she could help me choose some youthful and sexier clothes. She was a little embarrassed again, which suited her very well, then we went to one of these stores and there I chose some very sexy pieces and at the fitting room I deliberately didn't close the curtain completely, only halfway, this released another fetish in me, they could see me in public and that really excited me. I started to undress and thought I would take out the vibrator I had brought and masturbate, while I put on one of my sexy pink lace panties and sat on the bench so that anyone walking by could see me, then I started masturbating and this repeatedly forbidden thing, something that sent my pleasures flying really high, as I started to reach the peak, I told my son, who was standing outside the booth on the side of the curtain that was drawn, to pull the curtain all the way back and look here. In the meantime, I reached the peak and sprayed the entire booth and my son's pants as I slid down from the bench to the floor and with one last thrust I pushed the vibrator up into my pussy and as I enjoyed it I shot it out of me and was already moaning so loudly that everyone was looking at me. Suddenly I don't know what happened I just lay there for a few seconds then one of the salesmen, my son and a security guard stood above me, who were not looking at me very nicely and after I had to pay for the underwear the security guard led me out and told me that I was banned, but then as if all my inhibitions had been released I tried to seduce the guard too. Who I was lucky with because he took me to the back of the parking lot and fucked me between the cars. My son was waiting by our car. When I went back to my son, I realized that I didn't just want my son, but all the dicks in the world, because I'm a nymphomaniac whore deep down. Then as we got in the car, my son gave me back my vibrator, which he had picked up at the store. Since I'm a good girl, I should thank him properly, I told my son, then I took out his cock and sucked it. After that, we discussed on the way home that from now on he could do whatever he wanted with me. Since then, we've made countless home videos with my son and many other men. I became a dirty nymphomaniac slut who can never get enough of dick.