I Think Once a Cheater Always a Cheater

Once upon a time I held a perspective/ideal that I would be a faithful partner to whom ever I was in a relationship. That reality was crashed the moment that I started seeing another guy while being a in a long distance relationship with another man in 2017. I ended the long distance relationship at the persistence of the new guy. Things were over long ago however I stayed in the partnership.

It’s over a year now with the current partner and we were also in a distance relationship by 3 hrs drive. However during this time I was also creating friendships with other people. I like to talk and I find myself bored easily ( no this is not a defence- merely background info). It’s coming up to 5 months we’re living together.

I love this guy. Yet I’m bored and now I find myself talking to other guys but I always tell them I’m in a relationship and seeking platonic interactions.

Yet things have happened and I didn’t intend them to. I’m a cheater and I want to return the ideal of being a faithful and committed partner.