I finally figured out my libido trouble
and it was totally by accident. In the beginning of our marriage, my Husband and I were both very explosive emotionally, and our libidos were very high. So what changed?🤔
My Husband's mother was emotionally in her youth, but her Husbands didn't like that. Her first Husband divorced her in less than 1 year because of it. Her second Husband didn't like it, so she started drinking to dampen her emotions. This worked, but then she had to keep drinking.😔 She also had a very low sex drive ( after several years of stifling her emotions), and her Husband cheated on her a lot. 🤨
Anyway, my Husband rarley saw his mother have strong emotions, but when he did they were anger. He also didn't have any sisters. So, my Husband is very uncomfortable and somewhat triggered when I have strong emotions. Over the last 45 years, I have worked very hard to tamp down my emotions in order to have far fewer arguments with my Husband. However, I think this might have had something to do with my loss of ALL passion everywhere in life. 🤔
Since I lost my drive, I have tried hormones (estrogen, progesterone, thyroid, etc.), and they have really had minimal effect in increasing my desire. I tried Wellbutrin, and this did help, but I felt emotionally detached from my Husband, and actually started doubting my love for him. I have tried drinking, and this helps a little. Smoke (weed, 1 hit once a week for "our frisky" day) helps alot.🤔
Well, over the last week, here on this site, I developed what were probably totally imaginary emotions for someone here. I thought she (?) was a friend, and I felt small bonding emotions. Then I thought she had been hurt here, and I felt protective emotions. Then I thought she had left, and I felt loss emotions. Then I realized I had been played, and I felt all the emotions involved in this. When I say I felt these emotions, I mean I really felt these emotions, deeply. Real or imaginary made no difference. I experienced all these emotions. 😵💫
Finally, I came to be able to look at the whole situation in a less emotional way, and I could see I had done nothing wrong, except be a real human woman, and I felt happy with myself. This may not be a big thing for many people, but I am rarely happy with myself and who I am. I rarely think I handled myself in an acceptable way, but this time I knew I did. 🙂
Well, Wednesday is our day to get" froggy", and my Husband actually forgot. He never does this🤔. The old me would have said a quick "thank you" to Elohim and counted this a blessing, but I wanted to remind him that this was our day. I wanted him. I wanted his touch. I wanted the intensity we always have with lovemaking. I wanted all of this and so much more. My Husband was very willing to make my dreams come true, and last night was beautiful. I felt desire, something that has been missing in me for decades.😊🥳☺
I think, at least for me( but I suspect other women may feel this way too) my strong emotions, and being able to experience these, are a big part of what causes sexual desire in me. Now, some on here are gonna think that my increase in libido must be because I am viewing adult things here, but I have my settings set at mildly adult, and I never change them. I don't change them because I have Complex PTSD, and the adult side triggers this in me often. Others may think I have someone sneaking into my private messages, but everything I do on here I do in public. This is gonna kinda be like believing in the virgin birth of Yeshua for some. I mean, either you believe me or you don't, but I am telling the truth. 🙂
I know I am not the only woman ( wife) out there who suffers with low drive, and this discovery of mine may help others, so I am putting it out there.If you have a quiet, well-behaved wife who doesn't express her emotions anywhere( even online) and she lacks a sex drive, this could be why. She may really need to be able to be an emotional woman, at least somewhere in her life. Even if it is only online. 🙂
So, even though Heaven( and the admins) only know how many times I have started the countdown to leave this site(my first response to strong emotions is to run away from them), this site is doing me a lot of good. 👍
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My Husband's mother was emotionally in her youth, but her Husbands didn't like that. Her first Husband divorced her in less than 1 year because of it. Her second Husband didn't like it, so she started drinking to dampen her emotions. This worked, but then she had to keep drinking.😔 She also had a very low sex drive ( after several years of stifling her emotions), and her Husband cheated on her a lot. 🤨
Anyway, my Husband rarley saw his mother have strong emotions, but when he did they were anger. He also didn't have any sisters. So, my Husband is very uncomfortable and somewhat triggered when I have strong emotions. Over the last 45 years, I have worked very hard to tamp down my emotions in order to have far fewer arguments with my Husband. However, I think this might have had something to do with my loss of ALL passion everywhere in life. 🤔
Since I lost my drive, I have tried hormones (estrogen, progesterone, thyroid, etc.), and they have really had minimal effect in increasing my desire. I tried Wellbutrin, and this did help, but I felt emotionally detached from my Husband, and actually started doubting my love for him. I have tried drinking, and this helps a little. Smoke (weed, 1 hit once a week for "our frisky" day) helps alot.🤔
Well, over the last week, here on this site, I developed what were probably totally imaginary emotions for someone here. I thought she (?) was a friend, and I felt small bonding emotions. Then I thought she had been hurt here, and I felt protective emotions. Then I thought she had left, and I felt loss emotions. Then I realized I had been played, and I felt all the emotions involved in this. When I say I felt these emotions, I mean I really felt these emotions, deeply. Real or imaginary made no difference. I experienced all these emotions. 😵💫
Finally, I came to be able to look at the whole situation in a less emotional way, and I could see I had done nothing wrong, except be a real human woman, and I felt happy with myself. This may not be a big thing for many people, but I am rarely happy with myself and who I am. I rarely think I handled myself in an acceptable way, but this time I knew I did. 🙂
Well, Wednesday is our day to get" froggy", and my Husband actually forgot. He never does this🤔. The old me would have said a quick "thank you" to Elohim and counted this a blessing, but I wanted to remind him that this was our day. I wanted him. I wanted his touch. I wanted the intensity we always have with lovemaking. I wanted all of this and so much more. My Husband was very willing to make my dreams come true, and last night was beautiful. I felt desire, something that has been missing in me for decades.😊🥳☺
I think, at least for me( but I suspect other women may feel this way too) my strong emotions, and being able to experience these, are a big part of what causes sexual desire in me. Now, some on here are gonna think that my increase in libido must be because I am viewing adult things here, but I have my settings set at mildly adult, and I never change them. I don't change them because I have Complex PTSD, and the adult side triggers this in me often. Others may think I have someone sneaking into my private messages, but everything I do on here I do in public. This is gonna kinda be like believing in the virgin birth of Yeshua for some. I mean, either you believe me or you don't, but I am telling the truth. 🙂
I know I am not the only woman ( wife) out there who suffers with low drive, and this discovery of mine may help others, so I am putting it out there.If you have a quiet, well-behaved wife who doesn't express her emotions anywhere( even online) and she lacks a sex drive, this could be why. She may really need to be able to be an emotional woman, at least somewhere in her life. Even if it is only online. 🙂
So, even though Heaven( and the admins) only know how many times I have started the countdown to leave this site(my first response to strong emotions is to run away from them), this site is doing me a lot of good. 👍
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