I Need Emotional Intimacy

Ugh. I really wish I could have a girlfriend who would frequently talk to me and discuss our secrets and feelings. I feel so stressed over everything and I have some secrets that I don't feel comfortable telling to just anyone. My parents are wonderful people, but I just don't feel like I could trust them with my secrets. My entire family extended including, would just laugh at me. I just want a girlfriend who loves me and was just as introverted and kind as I am. But I'm so picky. I only want a girlfriend who's from India, and the truth is, I don't know where to find that hypothetical being. I go there every year, but I can't ask my cousins to help me find someone because I'd be ridiculed. And I don't feel comfortable dating someone who was born and raised in the west like me. I don't know. I so badly want this perfect being to be close with, but my standards are too high. FML. Heck, I've gone to online sites to find someone, but I feel like I'm too young, and besides I have more important real life things to do. But at the same time, I'm so desperate.