I Need Emotional Intimacy

So, I had this amazing (or so I thought) connection with someone. Distance has been a challenge, but not impossible. I'm an emotional person and crave that intimacy. I've never had it before. I was married almost 20 years...and gave so much of myself, I've almost forgotten who I am. So, this time around, I vowed to find someone else who can give what I do.

So, I find him. I've been there for him emotionally, mentally, spiritually, physically, financially (and I don't have a lot myself). I text him through the day to check in or tell him I love him or thinking of him. I do little things so he knows I care like send a poem, or a picture, or whatever.

I have to initiate to hear from him. If I didnt, he wouldn't do it. He's always too busy with work. He was supposed to come over this weekend (yesterday), and instead....I text to see whats happening, and find out he's working. So, he plans on coming over that night (last night). Next thing I know it's 11:00 and he says hes too tired to drive so he will be here in the morning. Well...around noon today I text him. He tells me he's fixing a leak and needs to get that done first. Kind makes me feel like a fool and like crap.

I don't deserve this! There's got to be a man out there who can give me what I need. I know I can't be alone in this...