i had it...and it was amazing. then he went batshit crazy and crushed it. i'm trying to drill the memories out of my brain, numb my heart, and wonder if i'll ever have it again.
I have found it very hard to drill those kinds of memories from my brain. It's as if we still have these emotions, but we don't know what to do with them or even who to direct them toward anymore!
I'm sorry you are going through this. I know it hurts like hell.
I will tell you this. Even though there were special things, other things will be improved next time around. I swear. Things you may not have considered that needed improving. And I am NOT an optimist.