1. Also work on your "Worth of Self". Find healthy ways to bring back your own worth, your self love as well. 2. Money is money, why put your sanity at risk due to "money".
All long-term relationships, will trigger old life wounds. You each will trigger each other. The trigger will be similar reminder of unresolved past issues. That saying " are you upset for the reason that you think you are". Many will cheat when their mate stir old hurts, they confuse the current situation, they will blame the "other" partner, then use this as a reason to leave or cheat.
Please don't go into another long-term, till you heal you. Else you carry this with you. That's why second and third marriages fail sooner.
Be your own best friend. Be your internal self love. (No special person can fill this, but you.)
@Prettybutloco aim to be in nature as much as possible. Walk in parks, go swimming, anything to be in movement. We create new brain connections when we move. On YouTube are many music healing meditation, try a few. When you drive or have 10min rest. Good luck
We all live in rooms of experience that some may never enter. You sound like you are strong enough to make the changes you need to. Don't give any more of your life and time to something that makes you so unhappy. Here for support if you need.
Its a common story in this day and age. You need to get out sooner rather than later. Think of yr kids and they they are seeinng as normal. This could affect their future relationships too seeing mum being treated badly.
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Are you renting, it would be easier for you to leave than get him to
My daughter just went through this, she saved just enough to get her and her kids a bus ticket to Anywhere. Granted, she's fallen on hard times, but at least, she is Out. 🤗🤗🤗