For the record I hate that "jealosuy is proof of love" tshirt I want to set all of them on fire.
First of all, I'm...in love... and I know it. I know i'm not wrong... couldn't be.
but I'm not jealous of the other boys she .... she is polyamorous and i'm not posessive and if i'm jelly of them it's not that she loves them its more that she wants to protect me from things like how much noise she makes because I'm not as large down below if you get my drift...
she thinks i'd feel inadequet....
so I cannot stay in her domicile....
but I know deep down that I have pieces of her no one else could ever... simply because I am emotionally deep and also very much so feel the way I do because of her heart where her heart is in things and in the political struggles.
she cares about the unfortunate and downtrodden and it's just ...
I wanted someone like that.. I guess it's more...
it's also how i'm treated etc....
she's ...been good...to me... like no one else..
and it's just enraging that people would insinuate that since Im not jealous of her !@#$ing them that I am not in love with her.
I can't believe i'm writing this though, honestly, it's too personal....
its just.. that shirt it insinuates i'm not really in love so there's that.
and then there's the real reason it pisses me off and sends me into blind fury.
domestic batterers consistently use jealousy as an excuse to deprive their victims of agency and for instance cut them off from other soures of support, but in realtiy it's so no one else can hear the screams and see the bruises and try to get her out of there.
That's. why. it pisses me off.
Jealousy is a control freak, it's a monster, and the thing is even if it only cost you your male friends it's still emotionally abusive, but if it gets violent, then it's physical too.
but jsut because he's not kicking the shit out of you denying you the right to have male friends is emotional abuse. it's still an abusive relationship.
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-7233
but I'm not jealous of the other boys she .... she is polyamorous and i'm not posessive and if i'm jelly of them it's not that she loves them its more that she wants to protect me from things like how much noise she makes because I'm not as large down below if you get my drift...
she thinks i'd feel inadequet....
so I cannot stay in her domicile....
but I know deep down that I have pieces of her no one else could ever... simply because I am emotionally deep and also very much so feel the way I do because of her heart where her heart is in things and in the political struggles.
she cares about the unfortunate and downtrodden and it's just ...
I wanted someone like that.. I guess it's more...
it's also how i'm treated etc....
she's ...been good...to me... like no one else..
and it's just enraging that people would insinuate that since Im not jealous of her !@#$ing them that I am not in love with her.
I can't believe i'm writing this though, honestly, it's too personal....
its just.. that shirt it insinuates i'm not really in love so there's that.
and then there's the real reason it pisses me off and sends me into blind fury.
domestic batterers consistently use jealousy as an excuse to deprive their victims of agency and for instance cut them off from other soures of support, but in realtiy it's so no one else can hear the screams and see the bruises and try to get her out of there.
That's. why. it pisses me off.
Jealousy is a control freak, it's a monster, and the thing is even if it only cost you your male friends it's still emotionally abusive, but if it gets violent, then it's physical too.
but jsut because he's not kicking the shit out of you denying you the right to have male friends is emotional abuse. it's still an abusive relationship.
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-7233
