I Have Crushes On People I Shouldn't

I have a crush on my best friend named Maddie. I've liked her since 8th grade but I didn't notice I had feelings for her around that time. She has a boyfriend though so I can't have/confess to her at all. I love everything about her. I'm just a silly girl in love with a girl I can't even have. 😹 But yet I can't get over her, no matter how hard I try. I wish I could make flowers out of pipe cleaners, pony beads, duct tape, and plastic heart gems, for Maddie that is. 💐