I Am Going Through a Break-up

He is amazing, kind, gentle, wonderful and loving. WE worked well together. We loved each other. But ultimately it always felt temporary (even after 10 months). Like we were just satisfying each other's immediate needs to not be lonely. I crave physical affection. He gave me that. The thing that finally got to me was that we wanted different things from life. It was a good few months with so many good experiences. But we also went through so much crap together in the short time and we helped each other through it. Now it just feels wrong. I want to find my forever person and I want him to be happy with his. I think he started to take me for granted too. He says I'm "the one", yet I don't feel the same. Maybe I just need some space and in the future things will be different again... I just don't know. My heart feels numb... Thank God for dissociation. Aha.

(First 24 hours no contact after nearly a year of talking every day...)