I Have Been In An Abusive Relationship

My bf and I don't meet much. So I was happy when he asked me to go to the beach. Apparently his friends were coming along too. Well at the beach they all were joking and having fun and I felt left out. Wanting a lil talking time w my bf, I asked him if we can go for a 10 mins stroll on the beach. He yes hes going to in the water and then we will go...he had me waiting for a long time..until he said that i should go back to the van...I was like what? Why? I cussed him in front of his friend and I deeply regret it. I feel neglected and provoked