Toxic Relationship? I’m super confused
My ex is a year younger than me, we met online and we never thought we’d grow closer this much cause, neither took it seriously until we really did fall in love. they used to say that they’d get busy later and they used to say that we should separate before that, I said sure. but that never happened, and the more I got to know them, the more I ached for that separation.
we were so intimate with each other that things started to get out of control. they started to ask for nudes and for me to open my camera I super not okay with that, so when I would say no, it’s like a slap on their face cause I’m supposed to be their lover, why wouldn’t I do what they want too? they used to say. even tho I said no, they pressured, and when I asked why were you doing that knowing it’s wrong you were forcing me, they said I wanted you to be comfortable with me. I asked hey please don’t record, but even that was a problem, I wasn’t supposed to say that, they’re my lover and that should be okay between us.
They’d say I ruin everything, that I’m dramatic, and would say that I do it too when they don’t ask or pressure me so whatever hurt I was feeling that should be on me for not speaking about it too soon. cause I told them i cried on cam once but I was looking way. also, I expressed how much I love Markiplier to them lol, I like him he’s so funny and I used to watch him whenever I was sad. They were like oh you have a crush on him huh, even tho I said no. I think what they had was jealousy, said functional crushes are weird, listening to male artists and streamers is also weird and would go “how would you feel if I had a crush on Cat-woman, or listen to Ariana Grande?”..
I’m certain I didn’t cry for nothing. But I also tend to tell him to do things for me and be persistent about it. even tho he didn’t want to he said he didn’t want to.he did so much for me like take me to places and love me so much. So am I being selfish right now?
we were so intimate with each other that things started to get out of control. they started to ask for nudes and for me to open my camera I super not okay with that, so when I would say no, it’s like a slap on their face cause I’m supposed to be their lover, why wouldn’t I do what they want too? they used to say. even tho I said no, they pressured, and when I asked why were you doing that knowing it’s wrong you were forcing me, they said I wanted you to be comfortable with me. I asked hey please don’t record, but even that was a problem, I wasn’t supposed to say that, they’re my lover and that should be okay between us.
They’d say I ruin everything, that I’m dramatic, and would say that I do it too when they don’t ask or pressure me so whatever hurt I was feeling that should be on me for not speaking about it too soon. cause I told them i cried on cam once but I was looking way. also, I expressed how much I love Markiplier to them lol, I like him he’s so funny and I used to watch him whenever I was sad. They were like oh you have a crush on him huh, even tho I said no. I think what they had was jealousy, said functional crushes are weird, listening to male artists and streamers is also weird and would go “how would you feel if I had a crush on Cat-woman, or listen to Ariana Grande?”..
I’m certain I didn’t cry for nothing. But I also tend to tell him to do things for me and be persistent about it. even tho he didn’t want to he said he didn’t want to.he did so much for me like take me to places and love me so much. So am I being selfish right now?
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