I seek guidance and some reassurance from absolute strangers rn 😔

So it’s not been that long since I’ve posted actually it’s about my current relationship I’m just gonna put it all out here no filter I've known this person for almost a year let’s call her T she was very sweet, shy and caring towards me and approached me even though I’m very unapproachable and well I took 6 months to ask her to date me because I only pick once and I’m extremely loyal it’s my first real relationship and well though we are young I do believe my loyalty is higher than most people my age. T has some sexual trauma and well I’d assume maybe that’s why we are having some issues rn. It’s not about sex or anything like that yk it’s actually more about her craving for attention and being loved and it’s usually coming from other people and I mean she’s putting herself deliberately into a situation where she knows the person likes her and well I find that completely weird. Idk about you but I’ve never put myself in such a situation or I usually turn them down but she likes the attention and I get it that’s the normal part wanting to feel validated and stuff Whats not so normal is her thinking of kissing a person just because they gave her attention yeah that was the newest thing that happened in our relationship i shut down for about a week now and well I know it takes time to trust and stuff again now I don’t know if it’s normal to be doing what she’s done lately. In my entire life I’ve never done that where someone gives me attention and now I want to have something physical with them that thought has never once crossed my mind until well she did it and then I started seeing if I could do that and I literally couldn’t. She’s spoken about her fear of cheating and being unfaithful but if you fear it why do you put yourself in that situation and why be in a relationship in the first place. I can tell Yall more details about other things too butttt please guide me a little on where I’m supposed to be because rn I’m at the point where like my love is locked away and my trust in her has been completely shaken. Thank you all for reading have a good dayyy - general 💜