My thoughts on my competency restoration of crimes

I pose no danger to anyone and I did have violent acts but no one got hurt in my cause. I got a class c felony and I got 5 yrs of competency restoration and I can't do it I took two yrs of it and I quit so I will never be able to own blade over 3inches. I am gonna talk my mom into not letting me go to see my doctor for a check up. They raised my meds of invega from 4mg to 16 mg and it raises my blood pressure up too much and I won't take my blood pressure meds and I think it is because of the invega.