Those messages and this situation between me and the guy I have been conversing for a couple of days

@swirlie you're right, but also he does you know... We met during summer, he's seen me selling my art on the street and has accompanied me there.
He has taken me out to dinner.
I showed him some somatic exercises in a park, and I pulled him to a qigong workshop. Then I trained with him in qigong, just me and him, for about a month.
I was visiting the little cafe he was working on the tiny island and we were having long lasting conversations.

One rainy day I was walking in the rain, there was none and I randomly found him in some hidden corner, and we walked together in the rain and went for cakes.

We had a little life together.

One day seated on the earth in a little forest he held my hands.

You can say it is a friendship resembling kindergarten.

I need to get over myself.

@Boeing
When these moments take you back to a very early time in life, perhaps those events are showing you that there is still some unhealed healing to do from that time in your life?

@swirlie yes and I am fine with it, there is always more healing to do.

But I feel ready to Live now, despite that I will be continuing to do my healing work, forever.

He is not ready to receive me and I should sit down and relax.

@Boeing
Very true, we are only here to forgive and to heal and when those two reasons draw to a close, is when we leave this place because there is no other reason to be here.

@swirlie we can always be here to enjoy and admire...:)