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PerfectionOfTheHeart · 46-50, F
I lost my faith in him. Trust was gone. But I continued on at an emotional and physical distance because deep down I felt like I pushed him to it.
After I became a mom, everything within me changed. My depression got worse, along with my appearance, and I simply wasn’t there as a partner. Raising the kids landed on me because he worked all the time to support us, so even though it broke me, I still put the blame on myself because I felt like I deserved that kind of treatment.
Nearly twenty years later I no longer feel that way anymore as I fully blame him for his actions, including not communicating with me properly because he preferred to dive into his hobbies instead, and the whole situation and how we each handled it is something I’ll feel anger from for the rest of my days.
After I became a mom, everything within me changed. My depression got worse, along with my appearance, and I simply wasn’t there as a partner. Raising the kids landed on me because he worked all the time to support us, so even though it broke me, I still put the blame on myself because I felt like I deserved that kind of treatment.
Nearly twenty years later I no longer feel that way anymore as I fully blame him for his actions, including not communicating with me properly because he preferred to dive into his hobbies instead, and the whole situation and how we each handled it is something I’ll feel anger from for the rest of my days.



