Have you ever been in reciprocal love?

I imagine upwards of 99.5% of adults have, especially if you take a loose interpretation of “reciprocal love” (like just mutual attraction), but I haven’t ever experienced anything like that. I’m not sure exactly why it’s so hard for me. All I really know is I’m really, really weird. I found out a little over a year ago that I’m on the autism spectrum, but that doesn’t entirely explain it. I think most neurodivergent people who aren’t severely handicapped still manage to find a romantic partner every now and then. At least all the other autistic people I know or have heard about do. I’m just a really special, weird case.