Feeling unattractive?

Today my boyfriend asked me if he makes me feel beautiful ( he watches porn, goes soft during sex and has asked to watch porn in the middle of sex while going soft)

I answered "it is my responsibility to make myself feel beautiful".

He says "I think you're so beautiful and sexy, sometimes when you walk by I feel..." Blah blah blah

But yet watches porn instead of sex with me and goes soft during sex, sometimes asking to watch porn during.

He should already know how it makes me feel. But I still believe the responsibility is mine to make myself feel beautiful.

He just makes it difficult and makes me want to find someone else who finds me enough (like ive always had before) without having side eyes for porn and a limp dick during sex but turns hard when it's porn.

Speaking of which I just got made to feel bad for not rolling his cigarette straight away because I was reading through this post and still typing it.

He says "I don't expect you to do it straight away but don't worry I'll do it".

Yes. He DID expect me to pay attention to him straight away as usual.

Do that anywhere else and he'd get called rude and get told off.

I need to get out of this relationship. When I'm busy just wait like a normal person.