Relationship status - Angry

Fucking Angry!!

I had a blazing row with my bf on Saturday. I'm still not looking at the numerous texts he's sent or listened to his voicemails.

I need some advice over finances. He works for a small finance consultancy company. He essentially organises mortgages esp for people who high street banks won't touch. Therefore he's not trained in the sort of stuff I need. I met with his boss a little while ago. He was ok but I wanted to look about, something at the time he agreed with.

Through the co-worker space I use for work I found another recommendation. I spoke to this person Friday. Largely his advice wasn't really any different and he was willing to point out the strengths and weaknesses of his organisation vs my bfs one. One thing, I didn't feel in any way pressured into a particular decision. With my bf's boss he seemed to already have it all mapped out in his head and when I questioned some aspects seemed a bit dismissive of me - something as a woman I'm used to in the Manosphere. This other guy seemed more respectful of me - a big one for me.

Saturday I talk to my bf and say I'm thinking I'll probably use the other guy. He got really pushy. Then admitted his boss was pressuring him for my business. I was more angry because he'd not said that at all up to then. And of course then I dig my heels in. And... it escalated to a full on row. Sigh - I don't like my relationships like that at all. Anyone knowing my history will know why.

So am I single? I don't know.

I spent Monday on my own freezing at a seaside resort I used to go to with Fran my old bf. That was good I had a long walk and long conversation with him in my head.